My heart is full

My heart is full. Filled with love, filled with joy, filled with happiness. 

I've recently gotten my temple recommend renewed; I've been having this feeling that I needed to be at the temple and I couldn't ignore it any longer. It made me face the fact that I needed to be better-and with guidance from amazing men in the bishopric I was allowed to continue with the renewal.  With a new goal on my choice of dress. 

Let me explain briefly; Its been a struggle the past couple of months. I know the woman I am and I know my values. Yet, I've allowed silly thoughts and peer pressure to get to me and I haven't been wearing my garments like I should and in that process I have hurt a few of the ones I loved and disappointed a little sister that I never knew looked up to me like she should. After one said night of a huge fight it dawned on me a lot more that I needed to shape up. I haven't come this far simply to fail now. I love my little sister with my whole heart and hope to make it up to her. 

Now with that being said, I was nervous for my interviews but they went well and I was deeply touched. These men told me what an example I was and how they could see my spirit was strong and deep. I even got a calling while I was with the Bishop, apparently Im out going and now Im the new assistant to the president on the FHE committee thing. (I'm really excited!!) Plus, I told them if they knew anyone who was going through a similar situation that I would love to help if they see if would be fit. They said I would be surprised if  I knew the truth and would give me a call. It breaks my heart to think of so many other men and women who have gone through or are experiencing the tremendous trials and pain of divorce. I would not wish it upon anyone and if what I went through can help at least one person, then it will have made things a little more worth it. 

Now back to the temple! I went alone (I really need a temple buddy) and since I didn't want to sit through a session by myself I decided to do initatories. I haven't done them for quite a while and I will be honest in saying that I forgot the blessings given to you. I was in tears every time I passed through for someone. I haven't lost those blessings, they gave me reassurance to know that they are still valid. What a blessing it is to be 20 years old and able to go to the temple anytime I want! To shut my cares away and to serve and learn. I am deeply blessed and humbled. 

I am so thankful for this gospel. The opportunity I have to attend the temple and the knowledge given will continue to always amaze me. I wish everyone could go and feel the spirit! To know that you are doing work for someone who has been waiting and I believe is with you, is so humbling and makes my heart swell with gratitude and love. I have a strong testimony of  the power of the atonement and the blessings it pours upon you. Im also thankful for the amazing new ward I have and the good bishop who is so kind and understanding. I love the power of prayer and to know i always have a friend. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.