Feeling forgotten. Used. Worthless.

Feel Forgotten?

Feel Used?

Feel Worthless?

Those are only a few of the constant feelings I battle. I feel forgotten by the Savior, I feel as if my prayers go unheard and that I am not of any worth. I feel used after giving my whole heart and body to my soon-to-be ex husband. I feel worthless. I feel that I don't deserve love. I feel like I am 80 years old trapped in a 20 year old body. I really struggle to over come those feelings. Does anyone else feel like this? Does anyone else struggle to try and connect to people all over again?

 I wish I could tell you that I always turn to the Lord and that prayer is my answer. Its not. Should be. I'm working on it. I'm really trying to find my worth again-within myself and within the church. I have my days where it really just hits me and today was one. I prayed to Heavenly Father for guidance and to feel peace as I went through out my day. I prayed that he would listen to the prayer in my heart and gave thanks to the examples I have in my life to help me. During the slow times at work earlier I found some amazing talks and had to share!

In a talk given by Linda S. Reeves she said; "I testify that He has not forgotten you! Whatever sin or weakness or pain or struggle or trial you are going through, He knows and understands those very moments. He loves you! And He will carry you through those moments, just as He did Mary and Martha. He has paid the price that He might know how to succor you. Cast your burdens upon Him. Tell your Heavenly Father how you feel. Tell Him about your pain and afflictions and then give them to Him. Search the scriptures daily. There you will also find great solace and help." How powerful is that?! She ended her talk with this last one thing that really touched me... "We must feel and see for ourselves and then help all of Heavenly Father’s children to feel and see and know that our Savior has taken upon Himself not only all our sins but also our pains and our suffering and afflictions so that He can know what we feel and how to comfort us."

The next one that touched me was from Dieter F. Uchtdorf's talk; You Matter To Him. (Highly recommend reading) He said "Another way Satan deceives is through discouragement. He attempts to focus our sight on our own insignificance until we begin to doubt that we have much worth. He tells us that we are too small for anyone to take notice, that we are forgotten—especially by God."(Which I know, but still hard right?) The following is what touched me the most...

At times we may even feel insignificant, invisible, alone, or forgotten. But always remember—you matter to Him! If you ever doubt that, consider these four divine principles:

First, God loves the humble and meek, for they are “greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”

Second, the Lord entrusts “the fullness of [His] gospel [to] be proclaimed by the weak and the simple unto the ends of the world.” He has chosen “the weak things of the world [to] come forth and break down the mighty and strong ones” and to put to shame “the things which are mighty.”

Third, no matter where you live, no matter how humble your circumstances, how meager your employment, how limited your abilities, how ordinary your appearance, or how little your calling in the Church may appear to you, you are not invisible to your Heavenly Father. He loves you. He knows your humble heart and your acts of love and kindness. Together, they form a lasting testimony of your fidelity and faith.

Fourth and finally, please understand that what you see and experience now is not what forever will be. You will not feel loneliness, sorrow, pain, or discouragement forever. We have the faithful promise of God that He will neither forget nor forsake those who incline their hearts to Him. Have hope and faith in that promise. Learn to love your Heavenly Father and become His disciple in word and in deed.

 

How can you not feel some reassurance from those words? I have to remind myself that I will always have my ups and downs. I just cant let Satan get the best of me. I have to much ahead of me to let times like this get me down! So this inspired me to start a new challenge! Ever heard of the 21 days closer to Christ? If you haven't...than go google it or something! :) It's worth taking a look into. I'm going to start it tomorrow and can't wait.